Wednesday, 22 May 2013

A NeW L!f3 aWa!ts m3..

well guys.. a new adventure awaits me in the future actually..
i got a chance to further my studies in qs.. quantity surveying..
people say its gud.. I hope so.. well, my acceptance is done.. I am in one of the universities... dats gud,.. gonna start a new life, a new journey, with new frends.. new faces, new personalities..
well I need to dcide things very well now...
 
my dearest frends hav also been accepted.. Alhamdulillah.. never would hav thought dat one of them, Maryam will b enterin tomorrow, dat is on the 23rd may.. sigh..
dats too darn early.. I am not satisfied with it actually -_- aiyoo.. I want more time to spend with her
well.. she is happy with wat she got.. so all I can do is pray for her..
I'm proud n hepi for her.. inshaallah she will be gven the chance to further her studies overseas..
i'm so proud of her.. wishin her the very best..
 
 
well. got a new fren didie... hihi.. its kinda sudden but I am actually
comfortable with her.. she is very nice.. well, I got interested to b frends with her bcoz of a certain sumone.. bcozz of dat person, I was given the chance to kno her..
well, sumtimes things like dat occur to me.. if I am interested to b frens with sumone
well, I reli did chose the right one.. well, I like it.. hihi..
 
regarding a new life.. I dunno how will it go.. sigh...
kinda worried.. can I find sum new frends there -_-
well. I kno I can but yet.. I reli2 hope dat I can survive there... sigh
wish me luck ^_^
 


Wednesday, 24 April 2013

mY sw33t mem0r!es..

hey bloggy n people reading dis.. :-)
 
todays entry is kinda special coz i am reli hepi n grateful while i was typing dis.. :-)
haha.. well, got some memories to be typed here.. one of it is abt my memories at school.. ghehe..
well at first, i was reli havin a hard time.. I nearly gav up.. I nearly lose hope.. yea.. I giv up on continue living.. wow.. dat nearly happen until i meet u guys.. my rainbow.. colourful colours.. with colourful personalities.. ghehe.. lemme start first...
 
 
first one is of course Maryam Manissa.. :-)
 
 
well, I just cant live without her now.. ghehe.. :-)
she is like my sister, my twin -_- .. haha.. amusing, not my twin haha.. well, I met her during form4.. well, both of us were anime lovers :-3.. yea.. always exchange comics at school.. love kitties, love anime, an LDP just like me.. seeing her alone sumtimes, I just cant stop myself from not saying hye to her.. she reli attracts me.. as a fren of coz.. eating catfish with her, when i'm with her, I didn't even miss my dinner.. rarely -_- .. haha... she likes to run, to release stress n she reli did enjoy it :-)
she is my bestie.. my number one, coz she can understand me, n I dunno y, I like her scolding me coz, it will take effect after dat.. I don't kno y I will listen to wat she says.. coz, she always say stuffs dat I wana hear.. listening to the type of songs dat I luv with her, brought back all of my memories with her.. n playing with kitties at our block.. she is unique.. we giv n take.. n dats y mybe, our frenship is quite strong.. yea, but when she gets angry, she reli did need her time alone.. yea, I even had a memory dat urghh.. it was bad.. but nvrmind, I get my mood troubles all the time.. same goes for her to actually.. ghihi..
 
next will b Aina Hani.. :-3
 
 
this gurl is sweet, kind and nice.. :-) I just feel calm around her.. hani is her name.. alredi engaged.. haha.. to sumone in my school.. hihi.... I dunno when I started to get close with her.. yet, sumtimes I just like being around her.. exchanging novels, sharing love stories.. haha.. yea, she is soft, ade la ciri2 wanita melayu trakhir.. haha.. she is pretty, got a lot of admires.. huihui.. well, we got even closer during our spm examination, studying together.. n i'll never 4get our hangout.. yea. dis is hani.. my cute n elligent fren.. she got style too.. yea..i like how she dressed up :-) ./ she respects the elders.. a brassband.. haha.. cant 4get an event at school.. she was the brassbands uniform.. so cute.. i'll always keep in touch with her.. luv her so much :* .. she is even peramah, yet when she is shy, OMG>> bpak pmalu doe.. haha.. yea dat Is just her personality.. hope our frenship lasts 4eva dear..
 
dis is Sayyidah Aqilah.. ^_^
 
 
haha.. my first impression.. SHE GOT BRAINS!! haha.. just kddin.. her name is Sayy.. well, she is the first gurl I got close to in form 4.. well, I was havin a reli2 hard time dat year..
without her, I wont survive dat year.. yea, she alredi saw me cry a lot dat year, well sayy, tengkiu dear for being there with me.. I will neva 4get ya.. yea, I will.. sayy is a smart, intelligent n of course she reli2 hav a bright personality.. she is so damn popular with everyone.. sape yg x knal sayy -_-"
everyone does.. she got a leadership quality in her.. yea, she can lead.. she is also soft n very pemurah.. pretty too ;-) hav a sweet smile.. I rmmber, people cat her a cat.. I cant recall y actually..
haha.. we r both ldp at school, so, a lot dat we hav been through together.. singing together, swimming, crying.. yea, I rmmber, sayy always like songs dat hav meaningful lyrics.. yea, eventhough it hav a weird tune.. yet she just luv reading lyrics.. meaningful ones :-)
now, she is in UPM, mengejar impiannya utk jd doctor..
ou, yea, I 4got, she just luv purple... ya Allah, a purple lover... yea, she reli does luv purple..
 
 
Hani's twin, Aida Hana.. ^.^
 
 
she is actually hani's twin.. believe it or not..
she is happy go lucky n one of the peers in school.. she works hard in everythin she does.. practically, we share the same feelings.. wana kno y? I dunno how to explain.. she reli is a gud fren of mine at school.. a fren dat I cherished.. we always work together n attend extra classes together, we might not be dat intelligent, well, I guess both of me n aida should receive an award too.. the HardWorking award.. haha.. just joking.. yea, both of us always help each other, whether in our academics n also our frenship.. she talks more rather than hani n even hav more confidence in herself rather than her twin.. i'm gona miss her,.. well we r still connecting with each other.. frens lasts forever right ;-)
kinda crazy like me.. haha.. luv u n thank u for being my fren.. :-)
 
my Akmar sista.. Ariani Akmar >.<
 
 
it all started in Maryam's class.. sumhow, she was havin her prep hours at maryams class.. I just went there n visit Maryam.. we got close after I found out, she likes ANIME!!! n even read manga just like me n Maryam!! kyaa.. haha.. I always hangout with wktu exam tu.. yea..  amusingly, her sister has the same name as I am.. amira akmar.. haha.. first time knowing sumone dat hav a similar name to me.. she is also born on January.. haha currently dating :-P
haha.. reli?? ask herself.. we exchange anime together n most of our times, we just like to exchange stories. x kesah la cter pape pun.. I recalled spending my time together with her during our 'free days'
haha.. u get it or not.. let dat b me n arie's secret. hihi..
 
they r my everythin.. my sunshine, my moon n my stars...
to my dear frends.. I hope u'll always rmmber me.. ure lil panda.. ure sensitive, emo, fierce yet this little cute panda ^_^ haha..
I guess dis is all abt them.. I reli cherished them.. sincerely from my heart... I just dunno how to express my gratitude to them.. thank u Allah for givin me the chance to know them.. thank u for giving me the chance to hav met them.. I am very very grateful.. n thank u to them for understanding me.. thank u to u guys for being there for me.. I luv ya.. this is sincere from me.. I reli do...
 
p.s~ HOPE OUR FRENSHIP LASTS TILL JANNAH!!
 


 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 


Tuesday, 23 April 2013

b0r3d....

still at home.. spending my time here
cooking, cleaning.. make dat as my new chores to do...
sigh.. getting bored over here... suddenly feels like I wana do sumthin..
but dunno wat to do at home actually..
kinda feel like travelling sumwhere but I dun hav a broadband..
y broadband? coz I cant live without intenet mybe..
huhu... I kno, life must carry on...
recently, I just lost a very gud fren.. aww..so precious yet I cant force my fren anymore..
I kno dat person very well..
well, he alredi dcided to make a distance btween us..
after we have been through a lot..
people might say we r lovers but we r not..
we r just close.. mybe close to me.. dun reli kno how dat person see me as..
yet I was kinda disappointed with myself coz havin this stupid feelings..
klau x de prasaan ni.. I might still b close with him right now..
sigh.. I regtret it.. but still.. I do hav Maryam bside me..
she will always b there sumtime..
I can understand dat she might b bz sumtime at home..
well, I'm still grateful dat she reli accepts me into her heart..
listening abt all her experience in life..
she had it rough actually..
well basically, she is strong.. yea, she is, I respect her...
reli reli reli do...
she listens to me, she would sumtimes pay attention to me..
well, I like people pay attention to me.. omg, i'm so spoiled..
~kyaa~.
nvermind, cant lose her.. reli2..
now, I alredi lose 2 frens.. yea but dat person whom I speak above, was the most I cant4 get..
sad ending...
aiyoo..
ok...life must carry on...
CHAIYOK!!!!

broken hearted

I just lose a fren.. n it reli hurts me.. n these were my last messages for dat special person in my life...


 
"ok then.. i guess we wont b the same anymore after dis.. i'll miss it.. alredi am missing it.. umm.. i just wana say i'm glad to hav met u.. seriously, eventhough i might b just a normal typical fren for u.. but ure still one of my besties.. n thank u for sharing n giving me advices.. u even tell me ure secrets.. tengkiu again for trusting me, even if it is a tiny trust...
i mnx maap, if spnjg i kwn ngn u i nie, smemangnya over, gedik n everythin..
i dunno y u rminded me of my bro actuali.. u r like a bro to me.. i just realise dat... i read ure blog.. i saw ure vdeo dat u make when i was in plkn.. it was great.. i'm not lying..
well.. hope our frenship lasts eventhough we r not gonna b close like b4.. i x tawu la if u even c me as a close fren.. but, i dun cre.. coz to me, sumtimes, when i giv, i'll probably wont get it back... so.. nvrmind..
abt the present.. u simpan je la or just throw it away.. or u can just keep it to giv to ure fren.. i x ksah... seeing ure blog, i hope u'll hav a great time at inti.. u r learning to socialise, gud for u.. i pray 4 u..
but i hope, if i seek advice, u would help... mybe i wont um, go crying to u or whatever anymore.. dun wana disturb u anymore.. study well
u r great n awesome..
ayat sume x ley blah.. haha...
sorie la.. i just nk luah je.. so, i wont regret afterwards... so dats all from me.. "



honestly.. I cried after I wrote this coz, I was reli sad losing this person in mylife.. dis person was once my everythin.. I love dis person from deep inside of my heart.. i'm not lying.. haha.. life is not dat sweet right.. yeah.. I admit it.. my life sumtimes sucks... everyone does feel this way sumtimes.. Ya Allah, 4giv me.. I should be stronger.. its painful, but I'll try...


to my dearest fren.. deep inside, ure still my dearly bloved, whatever hppens..
tengkiu for givin me da chance to meet u, to know u..
n u urself, ure hard to b frenz with at first, I cried a lot for ya u know dat.. n yes, u'll never kno..
yet ure the only one bsides Maryam to hav ever understands me n know my secrets too too too well..
n so do I.. u helped me, u yelled at me, u advised me, u were there sumtimes when I reli needed ya.. u were there, tryin to make me feel btter with ure jokes dat sumtimes didn't even work on me.. n i'll be getting blurr coz I dun understand it.. n dats when I finally laugh coz of ure jokes dat doesn't seem like a joke at all.. n u would get mad at me instead for laughing at u coz didn't mnage to create a joke to entertain me.. I luv ya my dearest fren.. it started from u actually dat we started to knew each other. it started with a simple and sinical dialogue dat we finally get to knew our names.. I knew ures of coz.. coz u reli do attract people with ure unique way.. ure gud at basket, IT n dat reli attracts me.. u luv anime too.. haha.. similar to me as well.. n the anime dat will always rminded me of u my dear fren is Angel Beats! yea.. the anime dat connects us together n even Another.. sigh.. gud time gud time.. reli2 great n wonderful.. ure even allergic to mi n caffeine.. n wat I will miss most is, this cute n meaningful word dat u called me my dear fren --> PANDA
if I recalled back, I'll 4 surely cry, coz, u called me dat.. n I would call u a name too.. bcoz of u my fren, I got reli attracted to dat cute black n white fluffy animal.. sigh.. dis would b a memory.. I'll cherish for the rest of my life.. yea.. n I wouldn't even 4got the day dat I made a surprise party for him.. gud times, gud times, hope dis year.. sumone else, would celebrate it for ya.. I reli hope for dat n I also hope, dat u'll open a bit ure heart n b open minded..

TATA my frend.. hope.. u'll live ure life peacefully after dis.. n hope u'll achieve ure dreams n goals in life.. InsyaAllah... frens till jannah.. :-)

lesen!!!!

Hey there bloggy..,
Still taking my lesson right now.. hihi..
I enjoy it.. sddenly feelin like i only wnted to drive my car only in the track.. huihui
Haha.. sronok sgt.. but i got reli worried coz i'm careless.. -,-
Aiyoo.. tp, its an experience i will nver 4got..
Meetin new frens, new t-chers
Haha.. ckg harozi, ckgu azmi, ckgu fazli..
Um, kwn2 plak.. xtekata .. rmai sgt tp x igt nama.. aiyoo...
Tp, cmne pun... Nnt i will b havin my own driving liscence! Wihii... :-D
Ok.. dats all for now.. tata..

Monday, 22 April 2013

you..

YOU
 
 
u came to my life.. givin me hope.. u giv me some strength.. u giv me support.. Allah gav me the chance to meet sumone like u.. dann.. u r my best fren.. u might think i'm no used n i'm just a bother to ya..
 
well.. i'm reli sori.. u kinda means everythin to me.. u understands me more than i kno myself.. ure like a brother to me.. a brother dat i reli cherished.. yet sumhow, sumtimes u never realise my presence.. u hurt me a lot u kno.. dat, u dunno.. yes i admit, u r sumtimes the only one dat can make me laugh again.. i respect ya..  i luv ya..

 
u came to my life, with ure smile, with our same interest.. u stand alone.. not relying on others.. yet i showed u some light, i showed u my sincerity.. maryam.. i luv u my dear n gud fren.. ure my number one fren.. thank u for understanding me..thank u for tellin me dat i'm beautiful.. ure sweet n nice.. ure sincere.. u r honest.. we both understands each other.. without u, i mybe alone right now.. without u, i'll b lonely.. without u, i'll never kno the true meaning of frenship.. u hear me out, u gav me ure shoulder so dat i can cry on.. u r always there.. i luv ya..

~p.s.. dat is my besties.. theres a lot to say abt them.. i'll write more.. just wait..
 
 

frends..

hey peeps...
 
just thinkin... dunno... just expressing wat i reli feel..
 
should i b sad coz my bestie doesnt even appreciate me.. or am i the only one dat thinks dat they r my
 
bestie yet they hav their opposite thoughts abt me.. sigh.. i dunno.. frustrated... kecewa.. frust sgt...
 
well, mybe i'm the type dat is always c the kindness in others yet, i didnt show it for myself.. i'm just
 
a nuisance.. am i? i dunno... sori for the stupid post... an opening post yet very dull n boring.. -,-